[pe2-image src=”http://lh4.ggpht.com/-tW-mT9uRFVQ/UdMQ1z95buI/AAAAAAAAF4I/3cHPAH-j9cs/s144-c-o/F7D8042C-16CA-490C-800E-14725C736CDD.JPG” href=”https://picasaweb.google.com/111163203489795350875/IntLiz#5896074853827047138″ caption=”” type=”image” alt=”this cat is so comfortable, stretched on a deck chair” ]
If anyone understands comfort, this cat understands comfort. She knows how to make anywhere comfy, and she’ll always find *the* comfiest spot. Doesn’t she make you want to lie down on a deck chair?
* In my backyard. I didn’t sneak over into their yard to get this picture, that would be creepy.
I’ve noticed that I like my writing voice better when I’m talking to myself, pondering to myself, stream of consciousness (though it usually is in complete sentences… cuz I’m funny like that). Why is that? I’m more authentic with myself. I also don’t have to fill in as much back-story, cuz I already know the background, so it’s a faster, more immediate train of thought. (“Wait for me!” she shouted, running after the train.) Also, I have more random asides and quips, because I’m amusing myself. 🙂 Sometimes they’re inside jokes, where you really had to be there on that one day in the 10th grade when…
And then, do I edit my train-of-thought stream-of-consciousness blurbs after I’ve reached the end? If I edit inline, then I’m clearly too self-conscious and not really talking to myself (cuz duh, I don’t need to censor when *I’m* the audience, cuz I’ll be hearing all the extra crap whether I edit or not). But what about afterwards? When I realize that I looped around back to repeat something I’ve already said, and why on earth would you care about all the meanderings and thoughts I’ve been having?
Also, that means that once the moment has passed, once I don’t feel the need to tell myself the story, then I won’t be able to recapture it for you, either. But then, if I don’t feel the need to tell myself the story, maybe that means I don’t need to tell you, either. (And who is “you” in this sentence? Is it me, because I’m writing to myself? Or is it the imaginary audience out there who probably isn’t reading this post anyway? Woah, my head is spinning.)
I want to post more. (I hate reading blog posts from inconsistent bloggers [like myself] who post saying “I want to blog more! But here’s my excuse why I haven’t… or here’s my plan for doing better!”, when really you could just SKIP the post saying “I’m gonna blog more” and instead just start blogging more. Duh.) But anyway, I do want to post more. I also know that this is pretty low on my list of priorities. (Given my previous parenthetical, where is this paragraph going? I think I had a point when I started it, but I got distracted by my own aside, and now I don’t remember what the next sentence should be. Oh right…) It’s an effort to write up a blog post, and disappointing to reread it and realize I sound lame, or I’m not telling an interesting story after all, and so I should just scrap it as not worth* the ones and zeroes it’s printed on. (And I’m still doing that lame thing I hate from others: sharing my lack of self-confidence. Sigh.) But the point is that when I’m writing to myself in my notebook, or on paper, then I like my voice just fine. Maybe I read it differently when it’s only to myself? Maybe I write it differently? Nah, I’ve lost the voice, now I’m telling YOU instead of telling myself. My self has already moved on to another subject, which is the point of my footnote… so I’ll just leave you with the footnote:
* I mistyped “worth” as another word that’s like “wrote“: wroth. It’s the verb of “wrath”, I think. “She was wroth with him.” Could just say “angry at”, but “wroth” sounds cool. And it’s just one letter off from “wrote”… which is the only thing they have in common. 🙂
It’s a new year, and I’m at the end of a four day weekend, back to work on the morrow. I have a brand new shiny iPhone5, which I’m also using to write this post.
I don’t believe in new year’s resolutions so much, though I like the idea if them. I have too much experience with them lasting exactly one day and then vanishing back into the cloud from which they came.
I try to live my life like a series of experiments, not always planned out scientifically, but at least always paying attention and observing what works and what doesn’t.
Yesterday I microwaved some soup, and didn’t put a lid on, and it splattered all over (after less than 30 seconds, so this wasn’t merely that I’m an idiot), so today I had to clean the microwave. Here’s the thing. The Pyrex bowls we store food in come with plastic lids. I don’t like microwaving my food with plastic, it seems like begging for trouble. Most of my dishes are made by a good friend, so microwaving might not be great for them either. And our plates are all too big (the small ones are almost 8″). We have one 6″ dish that we use as a lid, but it’s holding butter now. So, we don’t have anything that will function as a lid in the microwave. Arglglglgh.
I found duralex glass plates on the Internet. They only come in sets of 6, and we don’t NEED 12 glass dish/lids (I bought two sizes, obviously), but I bought them anyway. I will store half in a closet somewhere. Therefore this problem will be solved, once and for all, very soon*.
All of which is meant to be an example of trying to improve the problems in my life, often by trial and error. I hate cleaning the microwave? Buy anti-splatter plates!
On the positive side, here’s a cat:
* One of the sizes of plate is out of stock, no ETA. I ordered it anyway. The problem will be half-solved until then, which is vastly better than splatter all over the microwave~.
~ Cleaning the microwave turned into cleaning the counters, the frelling toaster oven, and even the wall behind the stove. Among other things. I hate cleaning in general, I get too fussy about it.